ugh

Can you hear me sighing? Not because I feel great or even satisfied, I am sighing because I feel like I am in the same frustrating boat all over again! I am fat! I am not only fat but I am puting on weight all the time! Since we started the process of selling our house I have been very stressed out! And what do I do? I eat! I am a stress and comfort eater! And right now I am soooooo stressed that I am finding any food in my house or out there and eating it, or I guess I should say shoving it in my mouth to calm my self! I want to be thinner! (Don't we all?) But I am doing nothing about it! I fantasize about being thin and being fit and exercising but I feel so tired and overwhelmed that i am not doing anything about it! I need to re focus but look at my life and wonder do I start now or do I wait for things to settle down? Advice? I think about becoming a vegitarian again or giving up sugar or cutting out carbs. I just don't know where to start. or maybe it's I don't know how to start! Dan is my enabler but I know he wants to loose weight to! He is struggling just as much as I am but his shows less than me! He tells me he weighs more now than He ever has and yet people ask him if he has lost weight because he looks great! UGH! Me on the other hand gains two pounds and instantly look 30 lbs heavier!

Any thoughts?

I hate unposed photo's

I have not been doing well with my weight. I have been "stress eating" and have put some back on. Anyway my sister in law down loaded some photo's for me from her camera. As I was looking through them I saw all of these photo's she( or my brother) had taken of me that I did not realize they were taking. Can you say huge!!! I look awful!! UGH! So here comes more stress eating ok not really but I am trying to think about what I am eating and eat better. I have made no diet plans right now since we are packing our house and trying to get it ready to sell this week. I realize this would be the worst time for me to try and not stress and give up anything. But I have given up pop right now. I thought that would be a small but good start! Again!

Had to laugh

I have been working out at the Y while the kids had their swimming lessons. Dallins is first and his lesson is only 30 min. Then Emma and Aliya have theirs. Since dallin is to old for the child watch and the pool isn't open at that time yet he comes up and sits up at the gym and plays the Ipod. He loves it and I get 20 more mintues to exercise! One day as we were heading up to the Gym, coming down the stairs was this beautiful thin attractive woman. As we pass her Dallin says to me, " You work out so you can look like her, huh mom!"! WOW Can you say observant!