my weight story

I was never a size 2! Well maybe when I was 5 but that was it! When I was 15 I thought I was hot! You know the kind of hot where you hate your body and love it all at the same time! I was probably around a size 10 (145-150). I knew I wasn't small by any means but still not bad looking! I liked to say a voluptuous woman!
Than when I was 18 some stress happened in my life to make/help me loose weight to the point that for the first time in my life I was able to fit into a size 6 (125)! I loved my size!! It was almost impossible to maintain! I would have to not eat and work out everyday for 3 hours to keep up that weight! I moved to Utah and thought I looked amazing! Finally I was a skinny girl! Or at least I hoped I was! I moved in with roommates only to discover that my roomates were a size 4 and 2! Can you say let down! I was the smallest I had ever been in my life and still felt like I was fat!
So of course my weight fluctuated a little, but I stayed pretty small. By the time I moved back to Montana I was a size 8 (135) and happy with it! I wished I didn't have ( ok what I thought at the time were) love handles and then I would be perfect, but all good!
I got married and then shortly ( really, I mean shortly, like 1 month) after found out I was pregnant! I didn't care how "big" I was getting I was a newlywed about to have a baby! Life was great! I gained 60lbs during that pregnancy! I had a very healthy baby, but had some bowel problems. So after 1 year I had lost alomost all of the baby weight (140) ! I thought "this was easy"! No effort to loose this weight!! Sweeet!!
After a fantastic christmas ( I put on 6lbs(146)) I found out I was pregnant with #2! We had wanted to get pregnant so this was very welcome news! Once again I didn't worry about my weight gain or working out! I KNEW I could loose weight after having a baby!
We moved during this pregnancy to Arizona! The heat nearly killed me! So with the aid of lots of slurpies and popsicles I gained 60lbs(205) !! This time it did NOT come off! I started to realize when she was 6months and I was still 190 that this was not going to be the same! I didn't have bowel problems with this baby! And I was also now feeding a two year old "his kind" of foods!
We moved again! To Washington! I started walking to the library and slowly ( very slowly) saw my weight falling off! We moved again and bought our first home, and I got serious! I started working out and eating right! I gave up sugar and dairy and got down to 170! I felt awesome! I was a size 12 but felt incredible! I could run and walk so fast! I had so much energy! I loved the way my clothes looked again! Even sex was better!!
Than I found out ( my babies were almost 4and 2) that I was pregnant with #3! I was excited and vowed to watch what I eat and exercise! I didn't do any of those things! Instead I ate whatever I wanted! By the time I gave birth I had put on 45lbs!!! I wasn't sure how I was going to loose this weight! I walked a little but just really enjoyed life! I only got down to 190 when I found out (Yup, you guessed it!) Pregnant with #4! Once again I vowed to watch what I ate and exersize! I even had fantasies about weighing less than when I started by the time I gave birth ( ok stop laughing!)!
I put on..... drum roll please...... 45lbs! I finaly surpassed my husband in weight ( ugh)! I did come out with a 9lb baby and a week over due, but still!
So now that baby is a year old! I have only lost about 25 lbs! I am 27 years old and weigh 206! I have never thought in a million years that I could or even would weigh so much!!!
So that was my story of how I put my weight ON! This is my story of how I will take it off!!!