I did it!!!

I have been wanting to loose weight but obviously have not been doing it! I am amzing at coming up with reasons for not starting a diet to not working out! After a wonderful vacation in Idaho seeing family and friends I realized I am HUGE!! so once again started researching diets again! UGH! Than after promising to start on Monday we went to a friends BBQ! It was great and so were the deserts! I had 4 rice crispie treats and one huge piece of cake/pie thing!! so much for that "effort"!
But I re dedicated myself today! I got on the Elicptical for 1 HOUR!!!!! I am tired and now have a huge headache but I did it!!!! I did 2.20 miles and 534 calories in 1 hour! It was hard for the first few minutes, then it was easier deppending on the song that was on. But by the end I was dying!!! Dan came out for the last 2 min and I begged him to talk to me so I stopped counting the clock!! I was dripping sweat and smelled awful but felt amazing! I can already see me 30lbs lighter!! ( I wish )! but I do feel good! By goal is 30lbs by the time Daniel and Mandi get here which is June 30th! So here is to hard work and quick results!!!

I Hate food!

I hate food! I woke up wanting to eat something! I looked at the kids eating yogurt and knew that it is a ton of calories! I than look at the fridge frustrated! What will I make to eat???!!! I keep looking at the fridge and realize that I hate food! I don't want to eat anything, because I don't want to make the wrong choice! I want to eat healthey but it seems so hard to go from the ease of a bowl of cereal ( which actually were healthy ones (At least you think they are!)), or a doughnut or oatmeal with loads of calories to trying to make something that tastes good and is not going to make me gain weight!!
so after a long time of wandering around aimlessly I decided to make eggs, with fat free cottage cheese and cut up tomatoes! I loved it! I made enough to share with dan! we felt great!!
So I did it! I made food! I did not succomb to something unhealthy! I ate great and feel great!
Now on to lunch.........

Enough is Enough!!

I have gained more than I was before I started this blog!!
I have been sick this week! And as I was laying in bed I saw a show were three people were dieting for different reasons. The one that succeded was the one that weighed the most! I realized that I can do this ( for the millionth time!!!!)! So lets take two or three!
I want to have another baby but the last thing I want is to be fat and get preganant and get fatter! which I do really well! I also have a brother coming home froma mission and meeting my sister in-law for the first time, in person, and I don't want them to all see me huge!!!!!!!!!
I have Dan on board because he weighed himself and he weighs more than he ever has too! So he wants what I want!! we can do this together!! I am feeling much better today than I have so I have eaten better today!! remotivated!!! so once again I am on board!!